It's been a real long time

Since I last posted here, I am still at my job, thats the only positive thing I can think of. My SA is strange, I am fairly comfortable at work, but only with the guys I work with. I have no involvment with the people in the office or kitchen.

I still have no friends and don't leave the house unless its for work or to see family.

I've been ok until this week, work isn't going so well, alot of bullshit going on, my crappy wages are getting me down. So i booked this coming week off, been hoping to get away. I've told people in work that I'm gonna go away somewhere last minute, I've constantly been online looking at prices for flights and hotels. There's just one problem, I have no one to go with, not a soul.

What makes it worse is that I was supposed to be flying off to vegas around this time with my mate in work. I was all ready to book it, and then he met a girl. Within a week 'he' had changed his mind and started lying to me. Pretty gutted. He had a car crash and told me he wouldn't be able to afford to go away with me. Within a week of that he had got his car back to new, for FREE, and booked TWO weeks away with his slapper and her 11 year old daughter, all paid for on his card of course. If he'd been honest I'd be ok with it, but he wasn't, and it's left me with a real shitty problem.

I am DESPERATE to get away this week, I will be SO depressed if I am left sitting indoors all week. It is ment to rain everyday so theres no chance to get away in this country with my camera. I fancy 3/4 days in Vegas. It's cheap, I know the place, it's great for photography and last but not least, I LOVE Vegas. If it was only a few hours on a plane I would've booked it by now, but its 15 hours! Thats a hell of a long time to be sat next to a stranger, or even worse, two strangers.

I went to New York earlier in the year with family and it was great, great town and not really that far away. But best of all, the plane was empty, we could've had a row each if we wanted, I think at times we did. I'm trying to tell myself it could be like that to Vegas, which would be excellent. But I know that equally, it could be absolutely rammed full and be hell on earth.

I ain't bothered about being in Vegas, on the other side of the world on me tod, it's just the flight thats putting me off, and most likely will mean I won't go.